Sunday, April 18, 2010

A valid criticism

by BSN

I recently received an email from someone pointing out that it had been a while since I posted. Honestly, I hadn't realized it - the day job has consumed every minute of my days. My last post in December complained about 13 hr workdays. Yeah, that hasn't gotten any better. Friday was my first "vacation" day since last June, but since I worked 22 hrs straight on Thursday, it was spent asleep.

Fuck me.

Don't get me wrong - I'm doing great at work and the powers that be recognize it. But having gone through a significant layoff a few years back, followed by several soul-sucking jobs taken to pay the bills, I find I changed and didn't even realize it.

I work in manufacturing as a master scheduler now. When shit happens, the people that work on the line get sent home without pay. That just kills me, having been through my own trouble with the layoff. I can't stand the idea that these people might now be able to pay a bill through no fault of their own. So, when shit happens, I'm driven to do whatever it takes to get things back on track. Mostly, I do other people's jobs until I can't keep my eyes open (what? didja think I screwed up? Pfffftttthhhhhh!!! ;-) ).

The effect on my life is predictable, however: a pissed-off wife, pissed-off kids, all other side-hustles grinding to a halt... So, changes are in the works. Not gonna jinx it saying anything else.